Mother and Lover, forgive me for I have sinned

Dear darling...
if the world could speak,
maybe she can,
she would sing your name
one more time,
with her 
last,
dying,
 
breath...
 
Whoosh...

Andromeda

I don't want to lose you
so hold me tight.
Grab me by my shoulders
I've fallen in love.
Close my eyes,
Don't let me see tomorrow.
Hold me so I can embrace you.
You feel so warm 
you.
this feeling,
your breasts against my chest.
Blood flowing,
Skin breathing.
Look up,
deeper into my eyes.
Deep.
Deeper.
Do you see it?
Do you feel it?
Find me.
Hold me.
Take my breath away because
I don't want to ever lose this moment.

The people you love become ghosts in your arms but that’s okay

Like a ghoul, a ghost,
You drag across the dancefloor
Trying to disappear,
drawn towards the voids of disco light.
 
The smell of brimstone and cigarette smoke still lingers.
I can see that you're trying,
that you're stretching, elasticated, tired
But you're already dead.
 
You can't hide the tears you hold in your chest.
Not from me.
 
You bow your head and sway,
I'd come closer but I'm too scared.
 
You haunt me like you haunt yourself
Never out of love but never out of hate.
Don't tell me you're okay because I'd know if you were.
Don't run
Please.
I'm here with you
In you.

Captain O’ Captain

I will captain this ship
I will hold my feet planted onto the worn timber beneath.
The first bullet to hit this ship
will be the first bullet to hit me.
I will watch the horizon, guiding us both to the sun.
I will bear, I will see the dawn before you see the dusk.
Your captain, I am.
My captain, I shall be. A visionary. A leader.
 
A lover.
 
Self sacrifice and compassion shall be the sword I guard you with.
I will see where we're headed and when I sleep,
I will envision the destination.
Sleep for you are so sweet.
This battle was not made for you, it never was.
You glow in the nightlight, radiating like candleflame
You keep my vision oh so clear with warmth and with light
The Gods, they watch us.
They wait for you.
They bring stormy seas but
I can't afford to lose you, so you'll just have to lose me.
I am the captain of this ship but I am only a humble servant,
in honour
of you.

Call of duty

I took a shit and forgot to flush
Oh baby, what a rush.
I really squirmed my asshole for that one...
I can still feel how tender my anus is in my bum-bum.
Oh shit! My mum found it...
Can you imagine if anyone else knew that I eat and shit?
I told my mum I'd clean up the poo-poo
But of course my mum just cleaned it and refused
My mum just touched the shit I forgot to flush
Oh baby, what a rush

The sounds of electric guitars reverb off the walls of East London

Behind the glass it all seems so real
Framed within the plastic window pane
Static lights, amber amidst the indigo of the celestial
A romantic painting of suburban houses and moving trains
London is on fire, the flames are electric
Mercurial ubers reflect highlights of iPhone X's and Samsung S9's
The twinkles set the scene as the stage is lit
The clouds puff, curtaining the noise of wagamama shop signs
I see blue hills in the distance, stooting stars in the sky
They shoot towards heathrow, sponsored by airlines
I smell the air of the cold and industrial,
Civil servants carrying cheap vodka and £3 meal deals
I stroke the coarse, rugged surface of the bricks
She's so beautiful with her scars, cuts and nicks
I feel the story, uneven, unfurnished and crumbling
She yearns to be loved, to be something
My darling London looks so beautiful tonight
Dressed in black among the grey of yesterday
I stare out into the distance peppered with city lights
The lady of the night dances where the darkness lays

The dangers of being/The Devil wears angel wings

Where's my vaseline?
In the trash
Something's burning...
Lipstick up my ass
Cold roaming home
Distraught and alone
Limping, bleeding along the loading zone
Busted lip, broken nose
Torn up pussy, torn up clothes
He was nice so I didn't say anything
Even though he persisted to try...many things...

[inaudible]

I cried and cried...
I thought I was to blame
Then I thought: "What's the use?...
He already came."

🎭

😶❤️🌍 But 🌍🔪😶 so now 😶❤️ is 🥶. 😶 still 😢 about it some⌚️. But 😶 feel 🙂 being 🤭. 💗😶🤕.

I A M N O T O K A Y

W H A T A M I D O I N G?
W H E R E A M I G O I N G ?

M Y L I F E F E E L S L I K E I T S D R A G G I N G M E A L O N G.

I D O N T K N O W W H A T I M W O R K I N G F O R
W H A T A M I D O I N G W I T H M Y L I F E ?

I C O U L D B E N O R M A L.
I C O U L D  E N J O Y L I F E.
B U T Y E T I M H E RE

I N M Y R O O M

I S O L A T E D,

W O R K I N G.

J U S T T O B E S O M E B O D Y I N T H I S W O R L D.

The tides wash the white-coloured sand while rubies lay on the concrete

I'll love you forever.
but if I do betray you,
I'm sorry.
forever